The people are starlings
the people are a flock but
the people have expectations
Develop, unfold, grow, be yourself but
I am not so interested in myself
I am just me
I don’t think I’m not worthy
I is just me
I wish the people were starlings
there is no individual
It’s the group and that is life
it will go on without you
You loop at the group without
looking at a single one
a single one is not even visible
maybe that is why I want to be a bird
The thing is
I used to think that the future
oh, that is still so far away
maybe I won’t even be there anymore
The future seems like a big word
a great distance
It looks like, in that way
the word thing
for I don’t know what a thing is but
I do know what isn’t a thing
And I do not know what is not the future
because yesterday is the future to the other side of the world
and maybe it is to me too
I think the future is close
tomorrow and next year
I’ll be here still then
I don’t know what the future is
So maybe yesterday was the future
maybe we just walked by
As I raise my hand and I touch my head
the world shook a little
and I touched my head again and the world shook and it shook and it shook
I shivered for the fire was warm and the room was warm but
I was cold
I always thought that writers and poets could remain a mystery
even though they write about their World Inside
I know now that I am an open book
that you may not always know what I mean, but you do understand what I say
That scares me sometimes
A story was told
Nothing of great significance, but it could have been.
All that said was,
nice
And it was
but this wasnt
Too busy reading the paper, reading an email
Someone walked away and
I am quite sure that this
was the feeling of blood flowing down
leaving my head
I quite literally don’t have words for it.
You see, the thing is, I never experienced something alike before. We were friends, and it was fine, everything was fine. It’s only now that I realize that I have learned to love you in such a short time. I remember last year, I didn’t even know you back then. I don’t remember our first meeting, nor our first ‘hi’.
You see, the thing is, I’m amazed by how fast this went. We are friends, and it is fine, everything is fine. I realize that you are so much one-of-a-kind. I remember yesterday, we had the best talk about everything and nothing, but we both felt such strong friendship all of a sudden.
You see, the thing is, I know for a fact that we will last. We will be friends and friends in a year and after that.
You see, the thing is, I know this might be confusing, and frankly, I find it too. But I just realized that I have learned to love you so deeply in such a short time.
These thoughts
they’re killing me
they won’t let me go
I walked around with the sleeves of my vest wrapped around my hands. I walked and looked for something, but I didn’t know what. Something to give me purpose, I guess. There was a mirror and I looked and I saw someone I didn’t want to recognise.
I felt like a little kid who had grown up with no mirrors, had never seen the light of day and finally after years got the chance of seeing who you really are and then all you see is just a person, one with messy hair and a stale vest.
So I kept on walking until I wasn’t alone anymore
While i lost count
lost in my head
i dreamt of those people of that community
and i was stuck with them
They were crazy
crazy is what they were
They talked and yelled and pretended
like they saw everything but in fact
they didn’t even look
i was the only one to see it
And yes i awoke
But they were still lost in my head
lost like me
The smell of food was still in the air
I tried to normally walk through it but
my feet kept drawing the attention
earth stay standing down to earth stay standing
I would fill the space with
myself but I drift away
My fingers tap a rhythm on my leg
so I drift outside and
I look back and see
a million little lights following us and I think
This has to be it
I gave you my heart
It is yours now
Take it
and break it
then give it back to me
I would make it whole again
to pass the time
Chrysalism 